The ex girlfriend I care about the most is pregnant and due to deliver in 9 weeks.
It should have been my baby.
I used to have more friends than I knew what to do with. I never had time to see them all and I was always talking to them organising the next time we got to hang out. I was the most social person I knew.
Then I got sick of a few specific people and eventually realised they offered nothing positive in my life and were just holding me back. So I cut them from my life.
From that moment there was a significant change. My boss noted it and has offered me a promotion. A big one. I’m more than happy to be getting it and I am overwhelmed with pride in myself. As well as fear because it’s going to be a hard long road ahead now.
But when I have a day off of work. I sit at home. Alone. And think I’d like to hang out with someone. But can’t think of a single person I feel close enough to in this day and age that I could spend an extended period of time with and share any common interests.
I grew up too fast and have no one on my own level. So I don’t socialise. How am I ever going to find friends and even love in a world that I can’t be a part of because I am a loner?
I thought throwing away a few people I was friends with would benefit me. But it has done nothing other than take my other friends too. I don’t want them back. But I do want someone. A few friends.
My best friend lives in Queensland and rarely comes to south Australia. And I rarely go there. Both because of work.
How do I meet people and become happy again???
Your face lights up and you smile and laugh when she is around. When it’s just me you are more subdued and seem kinda sad.
Either I upset you or she makes you happy. Which is it Ethan?
This is the question I was asked the other day. I’m not sure. But I know this isn’t the first post I have written about being unsure about this girl.
I was pretty pissed off when I found out she had a boyfriend. Then they broke up and I was relieved. But I still don’t know how I feel.
I’m just totally over being alone all the time and sad most of the time.
But surely I am better than a jobless,alcoholic,drug using, 30 year old drop kick who has three kids to two different women.
All my friends who are girls say I am the nicest guy they know and that I deserve an amazing girl. But not according to my mate who couldn’t even make his own damn marriage last half a year. He reckons this other dickhead has the inside track.
HOW CAN THAT BE!?!??!?
Last night I was hanging out with a friend of mine.
We somehow got to kissing and ended up having sex.
She is one of my friends ex’s.
I didn’t go to her place intending on it happening.
It just did.
My tumblr is Warrior for the light for a reason.
Because I feel that I always fight for what it right.
This act was wrong.
It felt right.
But he was a mate, and I’m not sure if it changes my relationship with her too.
I have contradicted myself.
What do I do?
I’m so bad at this whole finding a girlfriend business.
Every girl who I connect with on any kind of level has a boyfriend.